Fighting the downward spiral today…my mind replays past hurts, losses, fuck-ups, regrets, etc. with a vengeance when I get like this. Self pity is an uncomforted garment. Dislike it’s fit immensely…yet I wear it too often…my life sucks, and my soul is so weary, exhausted from it all. This is how it is with me when I slip into depression….not a pretty picture and the cause of my aloneness. No one in my life that cares, no one to talk to…can’t stop thinking this way, feeling this way…just a broken record, stuck in repeat. I know this will pass…it always does, but then always returns. God i just want to be fixed, free from this weakness i loath. Why i’m sharing this is not for sympathy, but so others out there struggling with depression might know they are not alone in their pain. And to remind myself that i’m not either…even when it feels that way. Stay strong & I’ll try to do the same. Better days are ahead…?!