Cold and hot

changes of weather shift expectations in uncomfortable ways to say I understood would be a lie more like a sad acceptance waiting on words lost meaning still, never knowing why, why speaking from the heart rarely receives what it deserves

In Gratitude

Wanted to take this opportunity to say from my heart, thank you for all the kindness & compassion shown by so many of you during a very challenging time for myself & my family. My mother’s condition is finally showing some signs of small improvement. She stood for the first time in over a month…

Connection

Could use some divine intervention if divinity as such even exists for a response to pleading souls wretched and twisted In lieu of this, an ungilded bird to softly sing a single sweet note To unwound past hurts  thought to be cast much too tarnished to ever take back Bringing affirmation to  our human & spiritual connection

A thin sphere,

an indulgent need desisting drama / negativity yet I’ve witnessed…. a polar state from positive out of care, no chastisements no judgments, only melancholy echoes of melodies never painted  clouds turned to dryness seeking solace I know, I’m not what you expected so little in life ever is expectations whither veins ruby red singing madness-…

Personal journal entry

My hope is that by writing out my thoughts and sharing them I can exorcise some of my inner demons. This post is not about anyone….just my undiluted thoughts & feelings. ….I walk around most days feeling like a worthless piece of shit…I suffer with depression, anxiety, bipolar disorder, a host of insecurities….never been treated…